Ramblings… Part 2
Oh man… This IT and software industry business. The problem, right now, I am facing here is: Deliverables. If you have worked in IT and software, you know what a deliverable is. Now, here’s the deal: I have a deliverable. Or, rather, if I were to precisely describe my situation: I have 40 videos as a deliverable. Um, I have deliverables in English language, and I need to get some of the text localized in eight languages. My deliverable set includes 5 videos. All of them to be localized in eight languages. So that becomes 40 videos. These 40 videos need to be completed by August 29th. Because September 1st, I am flying. I am going to my hometown.
The bigger problem is, I am not even halfway through what I need to do. And, I HATE to do what I have to do. So the reluctance level is maximum. Now, I am scared, that I’ll not be able to do it in time. There is a possibility of still finishing it, yes. But that’s just a possibility. As I write, I am loaded with fear that I’ll have to cancel my vacation to be able to keep up with my deadlines. Oh, this IT business. It takes its toll on your sleep, on your mind.
Boy, I wonder. What’ll be the maximum repurcussion, here, you may ask. The maximum repurcussion will be, that I’ll lose my job. Which is to say, I’ll lose nothing really, really considerable. Because, there is a good deal of probability, that I’ll end up much better off. But for the time being, I am seeing a possible loss of some 8-10,000 INR. And, I am not sure what really will be its repurcussions from family’s end. I am not sure, if, however, I mess up this deliverable and I am not able to finish it successfully in time, this is going to be a big deal…and I am not quite ready to handle it.
Or, maybe I am. Gosh, I need a break! How awful it is, for me, to follow whims and fantasies of others, and their requirements, and their ideas, and to live up to it at a point of time when you are in some kind of a virtual crisis. Because, from my objective view point, there is no crisis whatsoever. If I fail to deliver, no body dies…Nothing happens to anybody, and even, business impact to my company is speculative. No one loses anything. And yet, I lose holidays, I lose time to satisfy my personal needs and requirements, and happiness! I am tired, seriously, of living like a database entry, and listening to those who hardly care… All they look for is business, or lack of it. I am not sure how and where do we end with that… But the only thing, right now, goes through my mind and heart is…through this tiring evening, I’d want to sleep peacefully. It has become really difficult to tackle this situation, and I am not sure how will end up with it.
Goodness, I want to get rid of this…Atleast, until I die, I want to sleep well.